Now that I have the Reading Rainbow theme stuck in your head, let’s talk about books, shall we?
Or rather, the fact that I don’t read nearly as many of them as I would like to. Or used to.
I trace it all back to when we lost Sam and Emilie. I wasn’t expecting there to be physical aspects of grief, and thought I was going crazy when I couldn’t concentrate on anything. I didn’t read anything longer than a magazine article for well over a year afterwards.
I kept expecting my concentration to come back, but it never really has. For a number of reasons, I suppose. The physical, mental, and emotional stress of fertility treatments. A stressful and scary twin pregnancy. Newborn twins. Having to be “on” 24/7 as a stay-at-home-mom, and never feeling like I can shut it off and ignore all the work to be done around the house.
I read this post by Snickollet earlier this month and it’s stuck with me. There’s a lot I could relate to, the concentration issues, missing an activity I love and wanting to encourage it in my kids.
If you’d ask me to list my interests and hobbies, “reading” would be near the top of the list. Yet until this week I hadn’t read a book since the last week of August. I’ve read maybe five or six books this year, all but one read during our week at the lake and my two trips to Carterville this summer. This makes me kinda sad.
This blog seems to be turning into Things I Need to Do Better, isn’t it? (See also: get in shape, print out photos.) But I’ve mentioned before my struggle to take time out and time for myself, and reading for pleasure is encompassed in that.
So I’m trying to work on it. I bought a Nook as a great Black Friday deal and have spent time this week placing various e-books on hold at the library. I joined GoodReads and browsed book reviews. I even downloaded and read a book! The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks, which had been on my “must read” list for over a year.
As Henry and Eleanor are learning to read, I want them to see me reading and enjoying a love of books. Hopefully I’m on the way back.
Read anything good lately? Hit me up with some recommendations!